It has not been a pleasant morning for me today, so to say.
I missed my wake-up time,
and I dread going for s&w.

Quarrels was the first thing when everyone had gathered around.
All the arrangements I've planned ytd for the role-play, DID NOT SATISFY the group.
so to say my leadership was not great. well, thank you.

First thing first:
I announced that everyone must be available for this whole week.
I approved HJ & Shervon's leave for absent at the discussion.
I msg-ed all to say role-play is next monday.
I scheduled this wed, thurs & sun for the rehearsal.
everyone has to think up of their part with the guide and show it to me.
everyone knew what'd happened w/o coming to sch.
note: see what i've done for the grp.

Yesterday:
-HJ didnt answer my call.
-Shervon was sick.
-Valerie was sick.
fine. All 3 were absent.
valerie replied saying she has to work on wed & thurs.
I got all worked-up and we both got pissed tgt.
in the end, I re-scheduled to friday morning & sunday.
valerie & JJ agreed.
shervon didnt reply me, so I called her up to confirm with me & agreed to show me her work.
HJ confirmed with me in the night. (so it's fine)

Today:
the first thing was why I gave her an attitude ytd.
then, all was not happy why do they have to rehearse for so long.
afterall its a 5mins role-play and thats it.
JJ shouted sunday is unnecessary; and said why im late for the discussion. (right, im sry)
Shervon agreed to show me her work today, but she claimed she forgot to bring everything in that big bag of hers.
all was just defending their pride. (fuck)
Shervon then suggested the friday morning & monday morning.
ok fine, now settled.

so, the bottomline is:
why everyone just agreed plainly to me ytd then?
why suggest everything out of the blue today and in front of everyone?
why is leader always in the wrong of everything?
why all appointed me as the leader in the first place?

morale of the story:
Dont be the leader.

evaluation:
-dont do anything until everyone sit down tgt and discuss.
-no point of looking forward to apologies, it will just be miracles.
-what done has been done.

That's life, for all folks.